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Finally

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Finally, after weeks, I have found the time to compose a new blog post. You would laugh if you know how many times I’ve tried to write this one post with an update. As previously mentioned, the day job is keeping me on a constant work grind with little time for anything else.

And finally, I get to travel.

A few weeks ago I booked a trip to the Caribbean that I will be going on in April and I can’t wait. It’s embarrassing to think about how long it’s been since I’ve hopped a plane to go to another country given all the travel deals out there and the gaps of time I had, but I always seem to have a convenient excuse as to why I couldn’t go; I wanted to save money,

I wanted to go when the time was right, I didn’t feel like planning.

But then I realized that life was for living. There’s probably never really perfect time to go traveling and i didn’t have to spend and arm and a leg to go abroad. More importantly, I believe that traveling is just damn good for the soul. It’s a chance to get a change of scenery, a change of routine and see how people live differently from you. I desperately need a change from the everyday of the city. I’m hoping that all of these experiences will rekindle the creative fires.  (and I totally can’t wait to photograph the beautiful sights on my trip).

Pictures will certainly be forthcoming of this trip so be on the lookout in April. I can’t wait to share them with you.

No Absolute Time

©Jaimee Todd 2013

©Jaimee Todd 2013

That’s what my life feels like these days as I devote six days of my week to the day job. The work itself keeps me busy and time flies but unfortunately, it doesn’t leave me much time for anything else. My apartment often looks like a hurricane came through and I barely have time to cook decent meals and pursue my other interests. I’m trying to squeeze in the photography where I can. In this case, this is a window view from where I work. The other shot is a lobby shot reflection.

I’m hoping that once things do tend to normalize, I can take some time off and delve into my creative endeavors. I always feel like a part of me is missing when I can’t regularly engage something artistic. In the meantime, please excuse my sporadic posts. This too shall pass!

©Jaimee Todd 2013

©Jaimee Todd 2013

Nikon v. Canon v. Who Cares?

Not too long ago, I attended a meeting for a local photographer’s group in Manhattan. I was looking into whether I wanted to join the group in the hopes that I could network and meet new photographers. It was a small, newly formed group that was still trying to figure out what direction it was trying to take and what its primary mission was. Some of the people I met were still just getting started in the photography realm while others had been shooting for over thirty years. It was a nice mix of experienced and inexperienced, although one of the more seasoned photographers tended to take on a diva-esque tone.

Throughout the evening The Diva made it clear to the rest of us that he was serious about his photography by insisting that he wasn’t going to join the group if they were going to display in places like coffee shops or banks, that he didn’t want to submit a sample of his work to the group’s portfolio unless it was going to be digital, and how much of a letdown it was that Barack Obama’s official photographer wasn’t Black. I guess all of his quips might have been perceived as legitimate but I guess it was the way he expressed him  that came across as a turn-off. While I realized that he had a lot of experience and ran in the same circles as Gordon Parks, his attitude made him come across as arrogant and condescending. A prime example of this arose when, towards the end of the night, he asked me what type of camera I shot with. Proud of my recent purchase, I told him that I had a Nikon D7000. With a smirk, the Diva looked at me and said, “You still don’t get it, do you? Nikon’s aren’t all that good….as a matter of fact, Canons are a better camera…” and then preceded to lecture me on all the virtues of Canons. I can’t really remember what he said; it wasn’t long before his voice just started to sound like that “wha-wha-wha-wha-wha” sound that all the adults voices made in those Charlie Brown cartoons.

After he finished, I smiled and evenly told him that I liked my Nikon just fine, I preferred their weight in my hands and that at the end of the day, everyone is going to have their preferences for what camera they prefer and it really didn’t matter what you shoot with, it was the eye of the photographer that mattered the most. This seem to quiet him a little, which seemed only fair given that a majority of his work on his latest project was done on a little point and shoot digital.

I tell this story for two reasons: (1) As I previously mentioned, it doesn’t matter what you shoot with. As Ken Rockwell wrote in one of his blog posts about the face-off between Nikon and Canon, “Anyone who tries to tell you that one brand or the other is significantly better
than the other in basic quality is either an idiot, or a retail salesman who’s
getting a bigger spiff from one or the other that week.” Furthermore, there are photographers that produce incredible works of art on toy cameras or camera phones. Just ask Stevie.

(2) Artists can act like real jerks some times. I know this seems awfully blunt, but it still blows me away the amount of attitude and entitlement with which some of them operate. While I can understand the diva was serious about his work, he talked to the rest of us like we weren’t. While I’m sure he had decades of experience and insight to contribute, he also understand that being a part of a group is a give and take process and that he also had things to take away from others. I’m not sure where the attitude comes from but I suspect that most of it arises from massive insecurity that is masked in smugness and condescension. Everyone can relate to the fear of failure but damn, lose the attitude! We’re not impressed.

In the end, I have to remind myself that for every diva, there is a supportive, encouraging fellow artist out there that is willing to share and learn and it will be an ongoing process to seek them out and cultivate them.

Fin!

Merry Christmas

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I’m supposed to be cleaning up my messy studio but instead I’m playing with my photos and playing music, which is a lot more fun.

Anyway, with another year nearly tucked away filled with firsts and new adventures, I’d like to wish you all a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and a fantastic New Year. See everyone in 2013!

 

 

Leon

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Leon, the new danger.
©Jaimee Todd 2012

As I hinted a few posts ago, I went and bought a new baby over Thanksgiving break. He’s the new danger, armed, and loaded with pixels.

His name is Leon.

I’ve been coveting a D7000 for quite a while but they don’t come cheap. Luckily, I was able to snag Leon in a massive door buster sale at the Lansing Camera Shop and was quite happy to bring him home.

Unfortunately, I haven’t had much time to play with Leon as I have been strapped with work but now that some free time is in my imminent future, I have time to study my camera in more detail. Believe me, it’s necessary because, as one of my photographer friends pointed out, “That’s some professional shit!” I did manage to take a shot or two when some relatives came over to visit my parents while I was home. My young cousin, Dillon, was one of my first eager subjects.

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Art runs in the family. Dillon works on his latest masterpiece.
©Jaimee Todd 2012

Leon does take some nice shots and has a lot of great bells and whistles that I think I will have fun trying to figure out. Hopefully he will play nice with Lulu, who I still will be dragging along to photo shoots when my boyfriend and I scout out new locations.

Welcome to the family, Leon.

Grudgingly Saying Good-bye

©Jaimee Todd 2012

 

Last week I found out that the legendary Lenox Lounge of Harlem will be closing its doors for good at the end of this month. I was shocked; it was just a few months ago that I took this picture and now to hear that it will be shuttered forever makes me so sad. This latest victim of gentrification adds insult to the injury of watching Cake Man Raven close up his legendary store in Brooklyn just a few weeks before. Eerily enough, I shot the facade of that place over a year ago for my first Brooklyn photography commission.

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Even as I was finishing up that project,  my favorite West Indian restaurant in Boerum Hill, Stir It Up, had shut down too. I loved going there; besides the fact that the food was beyond delicious, I had a warm rapport with the owner and every time I would come to visit, she would fix me a plate of my usual stew chicken with rice and peas and special ice tea without me even having to ask. I also loved people from the neighborhood stroll in and order their fix for takeout and chatted about the latest neighborhood gossip.  While I never got confirmation that the restaurant closed because of rising rents, I can’t help but suspect that it fell prey to the rising cost of operating a business in Brooklyn.

Sigh.

My favorite meal at the long gone Stir It Up.
©Jaimee Todd 2012

It’s scary that these places are evaporating at the rate that they are. Gentrification is spreading through Brooklyn and Harlem like kudzu. While I always welcome diversity, I shudder at how so many  historic landmarks and neighborhood strongholds are fading away, taking with them the original flavor and character of these legendary areas. In their place, I see eyesores like chain stores and Applebees restaurants that just make the block feel vapid and awash in sameness. I’m afraid to even imagine what these areas will look like ten years from now. In addition to the change in flavor of the neighborhoods, lifelong residents of Brooklyn and Harlem are displaced and pushed further out to more remote parts of the city and Long Island.  When I lived in Harlem several years ago, I remember overhearing a lifelong resident complain about the cost of rent there and lament about how, if he had to do it all over again, he could never afford to live in the “New Harlem.”

It seems like gentrification has become a runaway train but I’m determined to capture the great icons of Harlem and Brooklyn before they are lost to the past. It’s a bittersweet endeavor and I hate to say that I have a head start on a few places already, but it’s crucial to immortalize them. My hope is that by photographing these places and their stories, I can call attention to their significance and generate dialogue and action that will force people to re-examine the costs of gentrification.

I’m keeping my eyes peeled for more stories to say, but if YOU know of places in Harlem and Brooklyn that are losing their battle to gentrification, please let me know by contacting me atjaimee@jaimeetodd.com and I will be sure to photograph that place and get its story.

More to come.

 

 

It’s been a minute…

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I know…I know. “Where the hell have you been?” Yes, it’s been almost a month and I will admit to completely falling off.

While part of it has involved ruminating in my own personal, portable Fortress of Solitude, a lot of it has to do with being burnt the hell out.

My last post was right after the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy. I was massively, massively lucky in that I was pretty much spared, which is a lot more that I can say for my fellow New Yorkers who are STILL feeling the terrible after effects of the storm. In spite of coming out unscathed, the energy in New York was bad; people were reeling from the storm, the subway system and the commutes were chaotic and a large swath of Manhattan was plunged in darkness. Even when I trekked from point A to point B for my day job, I could feel the stress in the air. At that point, I was already worn out from working two jobs and just plain old burnt out from city life.

During my first few years in New York, I made it a point to get out of town every four or five months. That was usually my breaking point when I was becoming irritable enough to feed a hapless tourist to one of the subway rats. But within the last few years, I haven’t taken the time to get away because I didn’t want to spend the money or work made it difficult to get away.

This year I had to get out. Fast. Within the last several weeks, something inside me kind of atrophied and all I could do was try and get through the weeks until I could get on a plane to Michigan and marinate in in Michigan calm.  I couldn’t really wrap my brain around anything, let alone write a blog post.

The time away has been good but I’m still not back up to 100%, which will likely be after Christmas, once these two jobs wind down and I get a chance to sit and think about what I really want to do next creatively. I have some ideas and am hoping that a certain new lovely addition to my camera family will help channel that (more on that later). I’m also soaking up as much inspiration as I can get my hands on and I will DEFINITELY be doing some serious traveling.

In the meantime, I’m making the most out of a little downtime but it certainly won’t keep me from taking more pictures. I’ll be sharing those so stay tuned.

 

Working Day and Night

©Jaimee Todd

 

I wish I could say it was because of an art-related project, but instead I am doing the day job grind. I’ve read articles that say that you should downplay the fact that you have a day job if you’re an artist but I think that’s such crap. Having a day job to keep a roof over your head and food on our table doesn’t diminish who you are artistically. There are times when it doesn’t allow you to create as often as you like but it doesn’t, in my opinion, make you less of an artist.

Anyway, I will be back to post more soon and share more creative projects. In the meantime, I thought I’d share a pic that I took to cheer me up. I bought some dahlias to brighten up my work space/studio (at least I get to work remotely for one of my day job contract gigs) and thought I’d have a little fun with it.

Until next time!

What’s Next?

The last few weeks since my show have represented a state of flux for me. Inevitably when you have something as exhilarating as I did, there’s the inevitable “return to earth” feeling when you decrescendo. Sometimes it’s a natural, gradual process and sometimes it’s a meteoric descent. I think mine was more towards the latter. Nothing really catastrophic, but I had outside events kind of bring me down faster than I would have liked, coupled with the general physical fatigue . Since then, I’ve been trying to think of the next move.

I think I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to leap into the next venture because I felt like I had to take advantage of the momentum shift. Doing so, added to the pressure and fatigue and it wasn’t long before I felt like doing nothing at all. I even lost my appetite for taking photographs.

So of course, it does leave me with the inevitable question of, what’s next?

Artistically, I still have projects in the pipeline that I want to get done. While I’ve pondered the idea of going back to painting, the inspiration for doing so hasn’t quite hit me so I’m going to let that come as it should. In the meantime, I’ve been making a point of checking out art shows and exhibits to soak up inspiration. As for photography, I was inspired by Gordon Parks’ exhibit at the Schomburg to do work that has a political bent to it. With all the insanity going on with the elections, I would really like to use art as a way of using my voice in what has becoming an increasingly hostile political and social climate. Seeing Gordon’s works as an indictment of racial inequality in this country reawakened something in me.

On another front, I also have plans to develop an e-book soon, which will give me a chance to flex my writing muscles beyond my blog. I’m looking forward to dusting off the old “research” cobwebs and getting into it. I’ll be sharing more of that soon.

In the meantime, I’m in somewhat of recovery mode this week, as I have been putting in very long hours at the day job and my eyes feel like they are going to fall out of my head. And with that savory image, I shall sign off for now.

Stay tuned.