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Finally

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Finally, after weeks, I have found the time to compose a new blog post. You would laugh if you know how many times I’ve tried to write this one post with an update. As previously mentioned, the day job is keeping me on a constant work grind with little time for anything else.

And finally, I get to travel.

A few weeks ago I booked a trip to the Caribbean that I will be going on in April and I can’t wait. It’s embarrassing to think about how long it’s been since I’ve hopped a plane to go to another country given all the travel deals out there and the gaps of time I had, but I always seem to have a convenient excuse as to why I couldn’t go; I wanted to save money,

I wanted to go when the time was right, I didn’t feel like planning.

But then I realized that life was for living. There’s probably never really perfect time to go traveling and i didn’t have to spend and arm and a leg to go abroad. More importantly, I believe that traveling is just damn good for the soul. It’s a chance to get a change of scenery, a change of routine and see how people live differently from you. I desperately need a change from the everyday of the city. I’m hoping that all of these experiences will rekindle the creative fires.  (and I totally can’t wait to photograph the beautiful sights on my trip).

Pictures will certainly be forthcoming of this trip so be on the lookout in April. I can’t wait to share them with you.

No Absolute Time

©Jaimee Todd 2013

©Jaimee Todd 2013

That’s what my life feels like these days as I devote six days of my week to the day job. The work itself keeps me busy and time flies but unfortunately, it doesn’t leave me much time for anything else. My apartment often looks like a hurricane came through and I barely have time to cook decent meals and pursue my other interests. I’m trying to squeeze in the photography where I can. In this case, this is a window view from where I work. The other shot is a lobby shot reflection.

I’m hoping that once things do tend to normalize, I can take some time off and delve into my creative endeavors. I always feel like a part of me is missing when I can’t regularly engage something artistic. In the meantime, please excuse my sporadic posts. This too shall pass!

©Jaimee Todd 2013

©Jaimee Todd 2013

It’s been a minute…

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I know…I know. “Where the hell have you been?” Yes, it’s been almost a month and I will admit to completely falling off.

While part of it has involved ruminating in my own personal, portable Fortress of Solitude, a lot of it has to do with being burnt the hell out.

My last post was right after the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy. I was massively, massively lucky in that I was pretty much spared, which is a lot more that I can say for my fellow New Yorkers who are STILL feeling the terrible after effects of the storm. In spite of coming out unscathed, the energy in New York was bad; people were reeling from the storm, the subway system and the commutes were chaotic and a large swath of Manhattan was plunged in darkness. Even when I trekked from point A to point B for my day job, I could feel the stress in the air. At that point, I was already worn out from working two jobs and just plain old burnt out from city life.

During my first few years in New York, I made it a point to get out of town every four or five months. That was usually my breaking point when I was becoming irritable enough to feed a hapless tourist to one of the subway rats. But within the last few years, I haven’t taken the time to get away because I didn’t want to spend the money or work made it difficult to get away.

This year I had to get out. Fast. Within the last several weeks, something inside me kind of atrophied and all I could do was try and get through the weeks until I could get on a plane to Michigan and marinate in in Michigan calm.  I couldn’t really wrap my brain around anything, let alone write a blog post.

The time away has been good but I’m still not back up to 100%, which will likely be after Christmas, once these two jobs wind down and I get a chance to sit and think about what I really want to do next creatively. I have some ideas and am hoping that a certain new lovely addition to my camera family will help channel that (more on that later). I’m also soaking up as much inspiration as I can get my hands on and I will DEFINITELY be doing some serious traveling.

In the meantime, I’m making the most out of a little downtime but it certainly won’t keep me from taking more pictures. I’ll be sharing those so stay tuned.

 

What’s Next?

The last few weeks since my show have represented a state of flux for me. Inevitably when you have something as exhilarating as I did, there’s the inevitable “return to earth” feeling when you decrescendo. Sometimes it’s a natural, gradual process and sometimes it’s a meteoric descent. I think mine was more towards the latter. Nothing really catastrophic, but I had outside events kind of bring me down faster than I would have liked, coupled with the general physical fatigue . Since then, I’ve been trying to think of the next move.

I think I was putting a lot of pressure on myself to leap into the next venture because I felt like I had to take advantage of the momentum shift. Doing so, added to the pressure and fatigue and it wasn’t long before I felt like doing nothing at all. I even lost my appetite for taking photographs.

So of course, it does leave me with the inevitable question of, what’s next?

Artistically, I still have projects in the pipeline that I want to get done. While I’ve pondered the idea of going back to painting, the inspiration for doing so hasn’t quite hit me so I’m going to let that come as it should. In the meantime, I’ve been making a point of checking out art shows and exhibits to soak up inspiration. As for photography, I was inspired by Gordon Parks’ exhibit at the Schomburg to do work that has a political bent to it. With all the insanity going on with the elections, I would really like to use art as a way of using my voice in what has becoming an increasingly hostile political and social climate. Seeing Gordon’s works as an indictment of racial inequality in this country reawakened something in me.

On another front, I also have plans to develop an e-book soon, which will give me a chance to flex my writing muscles beyond my blog. I’m looking forward to dusting off the old “research” cobwebs and getting into it. I’ll be sharing more of that soon.

In the meantime, I’m in somewhat of recovery mode this week, as I have been putting in very long hours at the day job and my eyes feel like they are going to fall out of my head. And with that savory image, I shall sign off for now.

Stay tuned.

Don’t Take My Picture

©Jaimee Todd

So yesterday I went to see the amazing Gordon Parks’ exhibition at the Schomburg Center in Harlem. If you live in New York, or are planning to come visit, GO to this exhibition. It’s modest in size but the portraits are beautiful and intimate photographs of black life during the 1940′s in Harlem and Washington, D.C.

Feeling inspired by casual photographs of Harlem, I set out to photograph the neighboring streets of the area. I wandered around the brownstone-lined streets and came upon an older gentleman casually leaning up against a gate. I managed to surreptitiously snap a street scene with his image with my phone but I decided on a different approach. Inspired by how Gordon Parks would ask his subject matter if he could photograph to capture the sentiment he was trying to convey and the fact he kindly nodded and smiled at me,  I walked up to the older man and asked politely if I could take his picture.

“No, no, no!” He said vigorously, shaking his head. The smile vanished.

I politely nodded and kept walking and deleted the picture that I had of him. Technically, I still use it for whatever I wanted. There’s no privacy expectation of taking pictures of people in public so I wasn’t doing anything illegal, even I wanted to use the image, but I wanted to be respectful of his feelings and won’t use it.I didn’t want to exploit that. (I’ll write more about privacy expectations and photography in a later post).

I mention this little anecdote because it reflects back and forth feelings I feel when doing street photography, particularly when people are involved. Although I usually use my iPhone to take pictures of people that I encounter or see in passing, there are times when I feel I’m being a bit of a voyeur, that someone’s moment of innocence or solitude is just being splashed around for the world to see.

I guess this is all a part of the comfort zone that one as a photographer has to grow into. Aside from capturing what is just aesthetically beautiful, there also seems to be some sort of responsibility to document one’s surroundings and the world at large. To me, this responsibility gives way to those intrepid photographers that take shots in dangerous and challenging circumstances. It’s also how those important stories get told, such as when Gordon Parks used his camera to shine a spotlight on racial and social inequality in the United States and poverty in Brazil. Then again, I’m sure that in during these projects,  Gordon Parks came across his share of rejection too. He probably had to develop a pretty thick skin as a photographer.

I can’t help but wonder if the advent of social networking like Facebook and Instagram make people feel wary of being photographed and possibly having their image shared with thousands of people. Sometimes all this digital “interaction” can make people feel wary of being exploited; not everyone is craving to be in the spotlight.

Ironically, on my way home, as I was taking a picture of the Lenox Lounge facade, some random guy deliberately jumped into my frame and started posing. After having to listen to him try to rap and enduring a few random pick-up lines, I began to wish that would’ve been like the guy who rejected my offer to photograph him.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Talking Shift

The momentum keeps on building!

Today I’ll be talking about my shift from lawyer to artist on the online radio show theKNU! Tune in today around 7:15 pm Eastern Time (4:15 pm Pacific Time) where I will talking with hosts A. Jade Smith and Tarsha Vega about my upcoming show, Visions of New York, and my ongoing journey as an artist. This is my first time doing a radio interview so I’m super-excited. I hope you will tune in!

TheKNU is a web-based experience featuring Tarsha Vega and A. Jade Smith. TheKNU Talks Shift with vibrant music, special guests, compelling stories and enlightening conversations. You can catch them every Tuesday at 4pm (PST) on Global Voice Broadcasting.

Plugging Along

So, with a little more than a month to go I’ve been pretty busy getting ready for the Visions of New York Show. Along with continual promotion, I’ve been working on getting the actual pieces printed matted and framed.  It’s amazing to see them in the “flesh”, so to speak because it makes the show all the more tangible. It really drives home the point that art is really meant to be seen in person, not just a computer screen.

Bridge Over Astoria Park, matted 16″x20″ (image size 11″x14″) on photografique paper.

That said, the tricky thing is trying to figure out what exactly to put in the show. I have a pretty large collection of images to choose from but rather than try and cram everything into the gallery space, I’m trying to be more selective as to what goes in. I want the pieces to breathe on their own but want people to have a good collection to take in. Just when I think I know all that I want include, I see something else in my portfolio that I want to add. It also doesn’t help that I keep taking pictures when I’m on the run that would also look great. Clearly, and this is a good thing, I don’t have to worry about not having enough to put int he show!

I’m also staging how I want to hang the postcard prints that will also be featured. I’m looking to feature 40-50 postcard prints that I’ll sell for $5.00. I always like to have affordable art options available because I think everyone should be able to own a piece of art they enjoy without having to break the bank. Initially, I was looking to adhere each postcard to the wall, but since I only have a few hours to hang everything the day of the show (emphasis on pop-up!), I’ve devised another method. I’m testing it out on my bedroom wall.

Staging the postcard prints on my wall.

Actually, my entire apartment has become a fertile testing ground for this show, which is probably why it looks like an art supply store exploded all over the place. I will not be posting pictures of that.
Trust me, it’s for your own good.

However, I’m happy to also share that my lovely postcards from my beloved Moo arrived last week. I sent out the second wave of invitations already and I just ordered more to be sent out, as they have been very well received. If you, dear reader, would care for one, kindly send me your mailing address at jaimee@jaimeetodd.com and I will hook you up!

Until next time.

Lessons Learned from Online Fundraising

 

So, as of Sunday, my Visions of New York  art show fundraiser came to a close and I am happy to say that I ended up exceeding my $1500 goal. I raised  $2,370, which doesn’t include over $300 I received in outside donations from friends and family.

Like any new adventure, I learned a lot in my fundraising journey and while I can’t say that I’m an expert, I do think I can pass along some helpful tips that I’d like to share.

Kickstarter v. Indiegogo (and god knows who else)

My initial plan was to raise money through Kickstarter, which is famous for it’s “all or nothing” model but after giving it a lot of thought, I felt more comfortable with Indiegogo, which lets you keep whatever monies you raise. I decided to go this route because I needed as much money as I could get, even if I didn’t reach my goal because I didn’t want the additional stress of worrying about not getting anything at all. Unlike Kickstarter,  you don’t need to have your project approved for an Indiegogo campaign and you can also use your campaign for a charitable aim, which Kickstarter doesn’t allow. I’d definitely use Indiegogo in the future.

Setting Your Goal

I would say that this is the hardest part of setting up your fundraiser. To get a realistic picture, you really have to have a breakdown of costs, not only for your show, but also for the fundraiser itself. In terms of the project you want to fund, it’s crucial to factor in incidental costs that you may not have thought of, like marketing for postcards or newsletters, postage; art supplies; it really depends on what you want to do. (Today, for example, I found out from my venue space that you have to provide your own event space insurance to cover any liabilities incurred at the show) The more time you can spend planning ahead to price things out the better.

As for the fundraiser, you also have to factor in expenses for that, ESPECIALLY for perks, which is where I almost fell short. It was pretty easy to calculate how much it would costs to produce my tote bags and my larger-sized prints but where it got dicey was my postcard print sets. It took a lot of money in terms of ink and paper, packaging and postage to make them and send them out and I was worried that these costs would eat into my show budget. Luckily, I went over my fundraising amount and that helped a lot but if I hadn’t, that would’ve been a headache.

Promotion

Of course, this is the most important aspect to raising money. No one can donate if they don’t know that you’re raising money in the first place, right? I found several different approaches that helped generate buzz about my fundraiser:

Creating a video: While it did take a lot of work in putting it together, producing a promotional video was completely worth it. I think it made a big difference in the success of the fundraiser because it told a visual story about my dreams, my goals, and what Visions of New York really meant to me. Additionally, it gave people a chance to actually see me in action and hear my voice. That may not sound like a big deal but people want to feel some sort of tangible connection (even if it’s only via the internet) to the person to whom they’re giving money. Visuals speak volumes and the more that you can provide, the better.

Business Cards: I also made business cards promoting my fundraiser through Moo (love them) with images that will be in the show on the back of the cards Once again, people like tangibles and the card not only gave them a cool visual reminder, but it also was something that they could hold onto because of the pleasing imagery. I also sent off bunches of cards to my friends for them to pass out to help get the word out.

Updates: This also helped a lot in getting contributions. Instead of begging people for money with endless tweets and Facebook blasts, I posted updates whenever someone donated money. Facebook was truly great for this because I could tag donors (as long as they were comfortable with being identified; otherwise, I just sent out a thank-you to anonymous), thank them publicly for their generosity and promote the fundraiser at the same time. Doing so really seemed to generate momentum because shortly after I posted an update, someone else would donate shortly thereafter. I think this is probably how I reached my goal in only 8 days. Plus that, it feels good to show gratitude for people’s support and kindness and you can never say thank you enough when people are willing to support your dream.Plus, I created visual updates every other day; putting the amount raised on an image and sharing it on social media, including Instagram and my campaign homepage. Not only was that a great way to keep people up to speed as to our progress, but it was also a clever way to promote the artwork for the show.

Newsletters: For the entire month of May, I sent out weekly newsletters with donation updates. At first, I was worried that I was annoying the hell out of people with the updates and someone would send me an angry email telling to me to be quiet, but that wasn’t the case. There were a few people that unsubscribed, but that was okay since these people are doing you the favor of cleaning up your subscription list. After all, you don’t want to keep emailing people that just aren’t into you anyway.  On a more positive note, writing the newsletters was a way for me to be humorous and creative in telling people about the fundraising progress and people seemed to really enjoy reading them.

Press: Another great way to get people excited about your fundraiser is to get someone to interview you about it. I teamed up with Live Unchained’s Kathryn Buford, who was kind enough to meet up to do a video interview. Reaching out to a local newspaper or popular blog is a great way of growing your audience and get you and your work in front of new faces.Don’t be afraid to pitch your idea to different outlets because you never know who would be eager to do a write-up on you!

The Ups and Downs and the Nitty Gritty:

Let me say that running a fundraising campaign could easily be a full-time job. There were quite a few nights when I didn’t get much sleep because I was up working on the promotional video, making graphic updates, cutting notecards, putting together packages, running to the post office, tweeting, Facebook posting, all while working my day job. In hindsight, I’d probably let go of my inner-control freak and assemble a team of people to help with all the work, although my wonderfully supportive boyfriend helped out tremendously with video production and organization. Thank Sweet Minty Jesus for my iPhone which let me post updates and promotions while I was on the go.

In addition to the nitty gritty, there are the emotional highs and lows of running a campaign. As I’ve said before, I was completely blown away by people’s generosity. Some of my biggest contributions came from people I had never met before, including some that lived in other countries. There were also people that I had only met once or knew me solely through the internet but nevertheless, stepped up to give. I also received numerous contributions from old high school and college classmates and former coworkers whom I hadn’t talked to in years! There were times that I was moved to tears by people’s kindness and belief in what I was doing. I like to think this was because they were happy to see that I was going after something that I was passionate about and living a dream on my own terms. I think this is what most people want to be able to do in life. Those that weren’t able to give were still incredibly loving and supportive and were a big help in just promoting the event. I am very grateful to them too.

As far as lows, I really can’t say that I had that many for this fundraiser. There was a big rush of donations for the first ten days and then things slowed down a bit after I reached my goal, which took away a little euphoria, but really not that much. This is pretty typical of many campaigns, according to my research, so I didn’t really sweat it too much. Towards the end, the momentum picked up again and the donation total surged forward. It was an awesome feeling.

So to conclude, my fundraising experience with Indiegogo was very positive and will likely do it again in the future. I recommend it to anyone and hope that this little tidbits from my own crash-test were helpful.

Happy Fundraising!

 

 

The Dark Side of Creativity

For like an unrecovered alcoholic who lives only to drink and who will effortlessly toss all other parts of her life aside to do it, artists who care only for their art, who neglect important relationships, will find themselves at risk for living lives that, while pleasurable in many moments, are ultimately miserable.

This excerpt came from the recent article, The Problem with Creatives  from Psychology Today that someone shared with me. When I posted the link on my fanpage, it immediately got a lot of buzz and retweets in Twitter Land.

Any creative will tell you that the artistic life is a solitary one; an artist can easily pours hours of herself into all-consuming projects that take them away from the rest of the world. While this rush of escapism can be addictive and enjoyable, it can also be lonely. I think this is especially so when you come up for air after a spell of utter absorption and realize that you’ve been out on what’s going on in the rest of the world.

In my own personal experience, I’ve found that whenever I’ve come up for air after a temporary bout of creative obsession, there’s a strange feeling of emptiness when the work is done. It’s kind of like looking around the room, realizing that there’s nothing left to do and then wondering, “Now what? What’s next?” This was especially true when I was doing a lot of painting. I would agonize and constantly think about every detail of the strokes that I laid down, anticipated what would come next, like a general trying to strategize against an enemy in combat, and then finally torment myself over what I should have done differently. It was a beautiful struggle but I would frequently find myself emotionally (and sometimes physically) drained after the process. I think that’s probably why I can go so long between painting because I have to psyche myself up for the next go run.

The refreshing thing about photography is that there’s more room for balance. For me, it’s spontaneous, carefree and joyful. Because the encounter between the photographer and the subject matter is often fleeting, there’s little room (at least for me) to get caught up in the agony and there’s more room to do other things in my life. It’s a wonderful balance that I didn’t feel when I was painting, which is probably why I’ve become so enamored with photography.

I think this is also  why artists can be unbearable, self-absorbed and downright ornery. I’ve witnessed this at many an art show when the featured artist (or artists) felt entitled to act like a complete turd because their need to make “their art” overshadowed the importance of interpersonal relationships and just plain manners. Case in point, I almost got into a shoving match with this obnoxious twit a few weeks ago who felt entitled to elbow me and repeatedly bump into me as he tried to talk about his artistic process to a potential buyer. Clearly, the man was able to see me standing there and could have made room for me, but I suppose he felt that my personal space was secondary to his talking about his art. Other shows that I’ve done with artists have left me wondering why so many of them can be so self-absorbed and disinterested in what other creatives have to contribute.

The other interesting point that article makes can really take a toll on personal relationships. We all remember the stories of famous of artists like Diego Rivera and Frida Kahlo. They probably were pretty dysfunctional to begin with but their obsession with their art probably didn’t help their tumultuous marriage.   In the engrossing book Black Cool: 1000 Streams of Blackness, contributing writer Rachel Harper describes the dark moods of her father, a poet:

We knew he loved us; we knew his periods of silence and the dark moods that accompanied them were not our fault, but the result of stress, from his students and the politics of academia to the frozen marriage that no amount of sunshine could thaw to the demands of creativity, the result of worshipping at the altar of the muse, whoever or whatever that have been.

I think when you become so identified with being an artist, it can swallow you whole and everything you do or don’t do is defined by what you’re able to produce. If you derive your only sense of self from what you create, interpersonal relationships just aren’t fulfilling enough.While I think this idea is pervasive in any line of work you choose to pursue, there’s something different about deriving a sense of who you are by what you make.

An acquaintance once told me that she admired people who chose to create art while they maintained a full-time job because they seemed to have a better sense of balance in their life, leaving less room for self-absorption and that it takes a special sense of dedication to be able to commit to an art practice while committing to a full time job. I don’t know if I totally agree but it does take the pressure off when you do have another source of income that allows creativity to enter and you don’t have to worry about whether or not it will financially support you. Doing so will allow some lightness and joy to come in while you practice.

But that’s just my opinion. What say you?